God, I wish I had a best friend.
I used to have a best friend. We had been friends on and off for three years and always got in fights. But somehow, we always found our way back to each other because we realized life sucked without having each other. She was the only person that ever fully understood me. I could be totally myself around her. We had so many inside jokes and hung out every other day.
We had our own characters and would role play with them through writing. We used to read the same books and watch the same movies. As the way I used to put it, we disagreed on things that didn't matter, and agreed on the things that did. So things were never boring.
I basically screwed everything up. Well, she did first but then I was to much of a stubborn jerk to forgive her the two times she came to apologize to me.
I really miss her and without her I feel like something is missing. But I think its to late to do anything about it. I think I've changed and she has as well so it wouldn't feel the same. I can honestly say I haven't felt happy since I lost her as a friend.
Another post from PT. Eventually I'll post an update about whta is going on in my life. Here's a preview:
- guys suck
- TONS OF BINGES
- Finally curled my hair sorta.
- so lonely.
- my mom is PISSING ME OFF.