Monday, October 18, 2010

My Silent Fortress.

God, I wish I had a best friend.

I used to have a best friend. We had been friends on and off for three years and always got in fights. But somehow, we always found our way back to each other because we realized life sucked without having each other. She was the only person that ever fully understood me. I could be totally myself around her. We had so many inside jokes and hung out every other day.

We had our own characters and would role play with them through writing. We used to read the same books and watch the same movies. As the way I used to put it, we disagreed on things that didn't matter, and agreed on the things that did. So things were never boring.

I basically screwed everything up. Well, she did first but then I was to much of a stubborn jerk to forgive her the two times she came to apologize to me.

I really miss her and without her I feel like something is missing. But I think its to late to do anything about it. I think I've changed and she has as well so it wouldn't feel the same. I can honestly say I haven't felt happy since I lost her as a friend.

Another post from PT. Eventually I'll post an update about whta is going on in my life. Here's a preview:

  • guys suck
  • Finally curled my hair sorta.
  • so lonely.
  • my mom is PISSING ME OFF.
so basically the same old crap.


  1. omg i totally know what u mean.. i have no best friend... not one person that i can tele everything to... i realised that im closer to people on PT that my friend in real life :/ sad

  2. i have a best friend but we've known each other since we were 10 so we're kinda friends by default.

    we pretty much hate each other.

  3. Aaaahhh! Finally someone who gets it! I was best friends off and on with this girl for 3 years exacatly and she keeps ditching me for this girl who's a complete bitch. :/ I litterally kissed her ass all those years and set her as a priority when she only saw me as an option. After countless times of forgiving eachother (I admit, I wasn't the perfect little angle either..but wayyyy nicer than her.) I finally threw my hands in the air and said fuck it.
    And the funny part? From day one of knowing her that's when I developed an eating disorder... strange...
    Anyways, I wish you the best of luck!