I can't even. I'm such a failure.
I'm never good enough. I'm not even good enough to be on PT. Worthless. Pathetic. I need to be down 20 pounds by spring break. I'm not coming on PT until I've lost at least 5-10 pounds. I'm disappearing. from the face of the earth.
Going to paint. Going to paint way my problems. Then clean my room. And study for my 8 different finals. Which I will all fail. Never good enough. No matter how hard I try...I will just mess up.
No more. No more. Time to do 200 more sit ups. It's coming back. It's all coming back. I don't expect anyone to understand this incoherent blog. Don't even bother commenting. I'm not worth your time.
Live and let live in solitude.