Thursday, January 13, 2011

this feeling, it's never going away.

I can't even. I'm such a failure.

I'm never good enough. I'm not even good enough to be on PT. Worthless. Pathetic. I need to be down 20 pounds by spring break. I'm not coming on PT until I've lost at least 5-10 pounds. I'm disappearing. from the face of the earth.

Going to paint. Going to paint way my problems. Then clean my room. And study for my 8 different finals. Which I will all fail. Never good enough. No matter how hard I try...I will just mess up.
No more. No more. Time to do 200 more sit ups. It's coming back. It's all coming back. I don't expect anyone to understand this incoherent blog. Don't even bother commenting. I'm not worth your time.
Live and let live in solitude.


  1. I'm going to bother commenting because I disagree with the fact that you're not worth my time.

    I understand how you're feeling :[ I hope it goes away soon. You aren't a failure, worthless or pathetic.

    Good luck with your exams and take care of yourself.

    <3 xx

  2. I disagree. You're not a failure. Sometimes you might fail, but if you get back up and try again then you're not a failure. You're beautiful and special and even though life is hard right now, believe me that it will be worth it in the end.
    All the best for your finals - study and think positive and you just might pass. :)
    Stay strong lovely.

  3. You are not a failure. You are not worthless. You are not pathetic.

    I know the feeling. It sucks... and I understand you really do feel all these things right now, but none of it's true.

    Things will get better for you. Just hang in there.

    Good luck on exams and with everything... things will be just fine :)