I just about died when thin was down yesterday. I check about 5 times and every time I came I was like: NOOO!?. I was so bored yesterday I even resorted to going back to PT. Boy it is hell over there and I'm definitely not going to miss it. I'm a little sad I'm starting over with my post. I like to set goals for myself in everything and one of them at PT was to get to 1,000 posts. I was almost there at around 950 posts. That took me forever. I was posting less and less there because I felt like people didn't care what I had to post anyway. AT thin I feel a lot more comfortable already, which is good.
Yesterday was terrible. I basically binged all day. 6 cookies...some Wheaties, fiber one bar and the list goes on. At this point I just feel like I'm never going to lose any weight by school starting. I wanted to lose at least 20ish but. I don't think thats going to happen. Now I'm hoping for at least 10. My metabolism is crap. -_-
I starve myself I gain.
I eat I gain.
Sometimes I wonder whats the point?I recently went to Dicks sporting good and they were having a huge sale on woman's athletic-wear. Nike and Addias short that are normally 25-38 dollars were only 7 dollars! I got two pairs. One is lime green and the other is yellow with pink on the edges. There nothing like new workout clothes that makes you actually want to workout.
I took a picture of the green ones:
(I know my room is a mess but I cleaned it since this picture. I look tan as well)
More and more lately I'm hating my stomach/back area. I used to hate my legs as equally but lately....they're not so bad. Not sure why. I still hate when I sit and when I walk. Not to mention they're like weirdly muscular is some areas which pisses me off...so we'll see. I'm going to look into some leaner things for them. Maybe yoga or something but idk...it just feel so blah. I don't feel like I'm exercising unless I'm panting/sweating.
Everyday I look at my stomach I cry. It's gotten so bad and I'm an idiot for letting it get that way. My hips are the worst. I seriously need to know some exercising that are killer for your hips and thighs. I've heard dancing but I dunno...
Today I have to get a shot and I'm not looking forward to it. The last shot I got I fainted. I've had only about 175 calories today and I'm actually feeling good. I don't want to have to eat more just so I won't faint again when I've been doing good. (FINALLY).
So we'll see...