Saturday, May 7, 2011

Expectations = Disappointments.

Today has been suckish. Woke up late with a headache and went to my volunteer shift at the animal shelter. The people I work with kinda annoy me. It's actually not even that, they just rub me in the wrong way and I can't describe it. It's a mother and daughter and Idk they're just always happy and act like they're so Superior like they been volunteering longer than I have, when in reality they just started in April. (I've been there since January) They dance together and the daughter sings, which is one of my pet peeves. I freakin hate when people sing/hum in public, it's just annoying. There's a radio that's constantly playing music, mostly country which I hate. So I decided to change it and the daughter gave me a dirty look. o_O
It's like "ok, you don't own this radio, calm down. "

What freaks me out is they look insanely similar to Alicia, (A girl I used to be best friends with) and her mom. I pretty sure they're related or something because that's just freaky.

After we came home I was excited because my brother was home for mothers day and we were going to go to Changes, a Mongolian grill that is soo delicious. We had talked about in the morning and I had been looking forward to it all day. I hadn't eaten anything all day and was going to go here and just have a meal for the entire day.

But, only about 15 minutes ago my brother announced that he was going downtown to go to a Cinco De Mayo party with a bunch of his friends he hasn't seen in a while.
What the what. If you haven't heard already, Cinco de Mayo was 2 DAYS AGO. Jerk. In a way I'm thankful because I was already feeling anxiety about eating that big meal at changes. But in another way, I'm upset.

I'm tired of being always disappointed. When you have expectations it sets you up for disappointments, always. Which seems to be happening a lot to me lately. When I have something planned, I tend tot think ahead of time, thinking about how much fun it will be, what to do ect. So when something is canceled..something inside of me just feels hallowed out.
Sick. empty. sad.

I should have listened to Luke, he said the exact thing in Gilmore Girls. . (You are amazing if you know what I am referencing to)

So, after that disappointment...this what I ate instead:
1 Cheese stick: 70 calories
1 Packet of Wonka eggs: 170
4 Saltines: 240 (Supposedly, but that's what the calorie counter online says but it seems like way to much. )

Probably not going to have anymore. Feeling way to depressed and fat. Just going to sit around and play Pacman on my gamecube. cool beans.


  1. I am sorry you feel bad. I wish I could help. I don't like when people sing in public either. And I hate when they act superior. And I love Pacman.

    ~ Meg

  2. I'm so sorry that your day was sucky. I hope that it gets better. Its crap that your plans got changed...when plans involve food and I plan my whole day around them I get super irritated and anxious when they get switched around. Oh, and by the way, be at ease...there are 12 calories per saltine cracker. A five cracker serving has 60 calories :-D